Where my Over-Doers at?

I’m a highly productive person, to the point of it being a real problem.

I am physically uncomfortable in the presence of low productivity or what I (often erroneously) perceive as “laziness.”

I don’t settle for mediocre outcomes, either. I will torment myself to produce nothing short of perfection, to the detriment of my mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health.

Here’s an example: I taught a one-hour yoga fusion class today. I spent 5 hours (!) perfecting the playlist, the programming, scripting and practicing my cues... Total overkill. You know that #rvrenovation we did this summer? What if I told you I lost a whole summer’s sleep, project-managing it to ridiculous, granular detail?

I don’t know where I’m going with this caption. But I do know that the second I realized that rigidity and chaos has prevented me from ever fully settling into flow, the sooner I wanted out of the grooves I’d carved for myself; many of these grooves encouraged by a culture that values flashy achievements over meaningful experiences. This is why I often declare myself “fatigued out of #discipline“ (and why I think discipline is over-glorified/overrated).

I know that we can’t be #hustling every damned day, and that we have a finite capacity to #slay.

For me, liberating myself from the rigidity of hardcore diet, fitness, health and wellness discipline, for example, helped begin to dilute the acidity of my hyper-productive tendencies. It created space for me to begin to experience the beginnings of a #flowstate. This is an unsung benefit of the “effortless relationship with food” I’m forever talking about.

It’s all still a work in progress, but now that my mind isn’t consumed every day with how to make myself “better,” I can see more clearly where my precious time and energy can go.

Kind of a neat #nonscalevictory .

Maybe this makes a ton of sense, or maybe I’m over here celebrating the 2-year anniversary of the #legalization of #cannabis in Canada... 🙃 You’ll never know.

Anyway. If you’re an over-do-er, you’ve got a non-judgemental ally in me.